Working really hard on making this more of a way of life, and less of a cliche saying. To be completely candid and humbly honest, I woke up early this morning after having a vivid nightmare. The horrible, earth-shattering kind of nightmare that I don't think I've had before- ever. The kind that wakes you up and shakes you at your core. The kind that shows you a fear so realistic and so present but one that you weren't actually aware of in your consciousness. And I think, in a way, it may have been God nudging me and proving a point. Like, "HEY GIRL! You say you've been trusting me and having faith and believing in the big picture but look at all of these real fears that you are harboring. Scary, messy fears. They've been here the whole time that you've been saying you trust me. You've been hiding them for no reason. Check yourself"
Today's goals:
1. give up my fears. Recognize them, acknowledge them, admit they exist, and then LET THEM GO! This is not my battle to fight. These are not things for me to worry about, and harboring them deep inside is certainly not helping anything
2. PRAY intentionally for these circumstances and fears to be removed, all while thanking God for his hand in all of this.
3. (Hopefully) be filled with a peace that passes all understanding and
4. Get more than 3 hours sleep for goodness sake
"Do not worry about anything. Instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need and thank Him for all He has done. THEN you will experience God's peace..."